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My current favourite song by Li Sheng Jie 李圣杰 - 擦肩而过.

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

{ 7:17 AM }

Good News #1: YH bought me a nice batik-material dress from Forever21! Actually there were many other tops that I also liked. Hehe!! Thank you fishy! =P This dress costs $53!! I should learn wearing heels now.. =D

Good News #2: YH finally gave me my ~~farewell~~ A Levels results present yesterday! Hehe. It's a snow globe! But I call it LOVE globe. =P Now my snowglobe collection is expanding! Yippee!! 2 snowglobes already! This globe is nicer than Precious Moments one! I haven't seen any that is more beautiful than this! Hehe. Sorry junie, if you are reading this. =x

Trying to make space in my cupboard to store this snowglobe SAFELY.

Good News #3: I'm starting my new work next weekend! More income! I hope I can handle the not-so-young kids well. =S And yea, I'm having trouble doing MATHS now! Haha!! Forgot how to do juggling. Damn it. How am i going to handle differentiation, integration all those topics later?!

Good News #4: Went out with Yunling to TM on Good Friday. TM changed quite a bit, with many new and high-end shops! Keke. She bought a Precious Moments snowglobe and 2 necklaces for her friends! She also bought about 3 Precious Moments cards for herself. Lol.. Eh I wonder where did i put my card! RAWR!! Must go find liao.. Zzz. I bought a pair of dragonfly earrings (again) from Perlini Silver, after much persuasion from YL coz she wanna get the discount. Zzz.

Good News #5: The Economics prep talk in MJ is OVER!! Wee!! Ms Quek treated us breakfast from western food stall and they changed owners! Lol. The grilled fish (recommended by ms quek) was nice. Haha. Aiya I any fish also eat one la. *Yummy!* Henry and I spent 1 hour+ at the bedok library making the powerpoint ok!!! *So fast. =x* Haha! Met many teachers in the school canteen. So paiseh.. X_X

Good News #6: MY EBAY BUSINESS IS TAKING OFF!! I'm so HAPPY!! Yup, there are more people wanting to buy my stuffs. Hehe! And I'm clearing a few of my secondary school and jc books already! Woot!! I've sold 3 books previously.. and today 3 books too! =) Got people wanna buy my antique lamp also. HAHA.

Not-so-good News #7: My TP test is drawing nearer and I was panicking in bed this morning. *Don't know for what nia.* Now there's pain in my left foot. Haiz. I hate the clutch la. My left leg sure cramp from every lesson (especially for circuit lessons). Lol. Weak ass. =( I really hope I can get the confidence I need for my test. Can't afford to fail! I think have to pay about $300 more to re-take. zzz. I GIVE UP LIAO OK! I shall see if I can change to auto if i fail. =P Maybe I just need to go for one extra lesson only KEKE!!

{ 9:14 AM }

Hello everybody! My Baobei laptop is HOME! I can't believe it, it's less than 1 month only! I'm kinda getting used to not having it in my life already. Oops. I feel such a FLIRT. Yep, I think i will be getting another lappie before school starts.

TP test is less than one month away. I'm so scared. :( And I hate that instructor Vincent Lee because he's the only teacher in my whole entire life who kept on suaning me until I totally shut off everything that he had said during the lessons. HMPH!!

Food at Shokudo:

Rostii with bacon

Tempura shitake mushroom

What I ate when i went back to MJ on results release day: (LOL)

I've no work for this week (till next Tues) because it's 5th week closure! It's interesting to know that some months have 5 weeks instead of the usual 4.

Gonna have some events coming up, shall disclose only after the event. Hehe. >__<>

I'm still DELAYING my uni application because I'm not sure if I really want to study engineering. Sobs. I can't imagine myself discussing some cheemology physics applications with GUYS, and perhaps CHINA students. Haiz. The only thing i like is the foundation topics. Looks really easy, foundation maths.. physics.. and CHEMISTRY. It's my LIFE!! MY LIFE!! RAWR!!

I nearly puked blood on Tuesday when I handled this sec1 boy during tuition. He didn't understand what I was trying to get across. Factorisation! How tough could it get?! I think he was just too tired but when the lesson ended he could talk nonsense with me! ZZZ.

I want to go Vivo to shop... T___T

{ 8:24 PM }

I love ~~Chemistry~~ Physics.

Went to the NUS openhouse today in the morning with Eunice and Adam. *I'm the lightbulb. Zzz* There wasn't alot of visitors in the morning. Haha. We went on campus tour and activity tour. -___-" I think the only thing i like about NUS now is their LIBRARY. They have "mass mugging" tables. The furnitures inside the Central library is new, hip, BRIGHT and COLOURFUL!! Then the tables are so big and clean, and their chairs are cushioned! Kekeke!! The atmosphere there is just right for mugging. Omg. I WANT TO START MUGGING ALREADY. T___T

My dad came in the afternoon to NUS, without my mummy. T__T I want my mummy... He went for a business talk that I, luckily didnt attend becoz I'm so NOT interested in studying that. Oh well, I think I'm going for chem engineering and probably another major in business. Lalala. And my dad thinks that I can't study masters or PhD after uni already. HMPH. Shall do it for him to see! RAWR.

I also had a sudden thought of joining CO in uni! Haha. It's been a long time since I felt that I belonged to somewhere other than home. Lol. But on the other hand, considering that I'm a music idiot, CO is not really suitable for me. Haha!! Maybe I can join a volunteering group instead!! That would really be much more enriching. =)

Yesterday:

Went out after work with Cynthia to Orchard. Haha it's my FIRST time eating at Food Republic. Yea, the prawn mee is really delicious and it's famous. haha. But when I saw how the cook cooked, it's kinda turn off!! RAWR. Then we ate green tea pudding thingy for dessert. This is somehow the first time that a green tea product (other than the tea) tastes acceptable. Haha!! =D Then.. as usual we went to Far East and cynthia started to buy everything that she saw. Haha.. Oh she also bought a top from F21. >__<

{ 4:33 PM }

Went to Giraffe with YH some days ago. The ambience very relaxed and dreamy.. Haha! I ate salmon.. nice but a bit salty. The food looks very good also. ^__^

Yesterday was so TIRING.
My schedule:
- Driving @ 8.30am
- Send letter to Japan! @11am (when i get home)
- Lunch
- Left house for work @ 11.45am
- Dinner with YH at Shokudo @ 7.30pm.

The queue at Shokudo is REALLY long! But it's fast moving, luckily. They have alot more variety of food than Marche also! Too bad I can't upload some photos to my blog for now. haha. My comp is still getting fixed! Yawnz. We ate tempura shitake mushroom, egg omelette (VERY NICE!!), rostii (YH must order this whenever we go marche also. Zzz), chicken stew (Lame.. =x).

So tiring.. Reached home at 10.15pm !! Thankfully, YH pei me go home. ^__^ Then i no need walk down the dark and scary street home alone. Hehehe!! Xie Xie!!

Today's schedule:
- Leaving house for work at 9am!
- Meeting cynthia @ Orchard at 5.30pm!

Fate or Destiny?

{ 7:07 AM }

The first thing everybody asked me when they saw me in school was "You break up how many times already??!!" What a weird question to start off another phase in my life.

~~And two days later, it's really true. This is the last time we're saying good bye to each other.~~ And off i go into my uni life. And mug mug mug! ~~Not surprisingly, I'm like most of my classmates now. WE'RE SINGLE. So everybody, please don't ask me anything about this issue anymore. It hurts to recollect memories.~~

I shall learn to cook, do more housework and learn more tricks to make my ~~future~~ boyfriend happy! I need to hire a love teacher. Haha. I feel that I'm like the old Yoo Hee, just that I'm not pretty. Zzz.

I had been lying in bed for the morning, trying to get some rest, but I was awake most of the time. -___-" And the pain was still there when I woke up!! Zzz.

Does everything have an end to it?

{ 8:37 PM }

I can't imagine myself studying physics again. I've been considering studying between Chemical Engineering, Chemistry or ~~Accountancy~~.

Ok, I'm ruling out accountancy becoz the job is too boring. Sitting in front of the computer for so many hours a day isn't for me. Haha! That sounds ironic as I used to spend hours playing Maple!! Hahaha!! Ya I just dont want to grow fat with a big ass or something.

Chemistry is my beloved subject! I read the scholarship magazine and saw that the starting salary of a chemistry grad is only $2200!! That is so pathetic!! I'm tired of getting such lousy pay already. (I'm earning at least 50% lesser now even though it's just a temp job!) And yea.. I can spend more when i graduate! Muahahaha!! Keep thinking of spending when I haven't even earn money!!

Chem Engineering is quite boring to me, learn more physics than chemistry. I saw the topics that I might be studying already. Ok, at least no semi-cons or nuclear physics or EM/EMI !! HAHA. Its more on, fluid mechanics, heat and mass transfer and also some technical topics. Isn't as bad as what I thought it to be. ^__^ Now I feel a tiny weeny more relieved. *Provided that I can get into the course first.* Oh and the starting salary is $2800 (more decent at least). Hehe!

Seriously I've never considered to be an engineer wearing yellow helmet and phua chu kang's boots (HAHA), nor a businesswoman wearing black suits strutting around in high heels and travelling around the world. All thanks to my dad who doesn't want me to study science and now giving me so much headache. ROAR!!

I have a new dream. I wanna be a CEO of a pharmaceutical company. Sounds cool right?! Then i can shake leg everyday and order people to do things. Woot !! I want to earn 7m anually and then buy many many lamborghinis every year and keep them for my car collection. Ok, stop it. It's getting too far-stretched already. Haha.

{ 10:10 AM }

Once again, thank you to all those who congratulated me yesterday! I'm quite happy with my results even though it's not the perfect set of results that everybody wishes to get. =)

*Sharing my touching experience with you now* Through this A level exam, I really learnt alot (not the content of the subjects), such as.. determination and perseverance are really very crucial at the last phase in my JC life. I'm very pleased with my H1 econs results (which i got an A) because I gave up during JC2. After the stupid March Block test (I got a U), its really very discouraging. And later on, I rmb a Biz Club senior who came back and gave us a talk during econs lecture. She got U for prelims but A for A levels! It must be a miracle. I didnt believe in miracles, but I decided to give it my best nevertheless. I really didnt want my mistake to repeat like what I've gotten for O Levels (I was really very upset when I couldnt get into the school I wanted).

Oh, so I started preparing for Econs before the MYE, its kinda last minute so I only got S for it. Small improvement. Then.. I worked even harder during prelims and I got a D! And since that senior could jump from U to A, D could also jump to A! Aiya, I just tried my best and told myself no matter what results i will get, I wont regret it, because I really tried whatever I could do already. I actually flipped my econs TB before the exams ok!! It sounds so much easier to study after reading.

In conclusion, for all my friends who are currently studying and for those who are disappointed in their results, don't give up! And it's never too late to try! You might not know that a miracle would happen right in front of you!! =)

Kinda sad that I didn't go out and celebrate with my class (left a few pathetic ppl only, dunno others go where liao). I don't know if its really celebration anot also, the atmosphere doesnt seem right. I could still remember last year I accompanied YH to go swensons even though he didnt get good grades! Haha! And it's so irritating that we met alot of his classmates there, and the scary part was that they're all 3 A students at least! Omg.

Kinda pissed off last night becoz when I'm finally home by 8pm to catch my Jacky Wu show in time... the final episode had already ended last friday. OMG.

Yay. I got the nano already! Hehehe!! Irritated that I have 2 new earphones now. Zzz. My dad didnt want to give me a new one when I spoiled mine, so YH bought one for me!! Now i got 2 already!! Not enough ears to listen also !! Hahaha. My dad just bought a cheapo neh neh $600 Asus notebook from IT show yesterday. They pangseh me and go see IT show! Maybe he can lend/sell/give me his old notebook.. HAHAHA. Then I no need save like crazy to buy a new one le.

Kinda busy these few weeks becoz ppl are asking to go out with me! Omg. Hahaha. So rare...! Jk la. haha. I think they more likely asking for a treat from me lor! I BROKE with $95 left for this month leh!! T_____T

Oh. I think MJ changed their maths deputy head. I didnt know Mr Patrick is a maths teacher! Haha. I thought he taught literature or GP or the arts subjects. Haha!! I think I'm more interested if he teaches French! WEEE!!!

{ 7:39 AM }

A very big thank you to all who gave me well-wishes through sms and stuffs, really very happy! And.. All of you will be blessed! ^__^

And for those who cursed me, I have these 2 people in mind currently, both names start with J____. Really such a jinx! Go and di* !! HMPH !!

I just realised I have opened a butterfly farm this week. HAHA. Alot of butterflies inside my stomach.. so uncomfortable! Come lelong lelong... Buy 1 get 1 free!!

I'm going school earlier today to settle some unsettled business. I owe people money, people also owe me money. Haha.

Tata! I hope I don't get a heart attack... I dont wanna die so early!! SOBS.

{ 8:15 AM }

My dad told me a secret today! HAHA. On Monday (the day I spilled water on my comp), my sister switched on my computer to use when she came home. It was the same scenario, the doo-doo sound!! HAHA. Then my dad said that my sister was so scared because of me. And my mum said she spoil my thing again! Hahaha!! I shouldn't have said anything and it will be my sister's fault already!! HAHA. I always scold her for spoiling my stuffs. @#$%

Today is Doom Day.. muahahaha. Hope all will be fine tmr. =) Tmr very busy.. so many things to do! Sianz.

{ 11:03 AM }

I saw light entering my bleak life today.

I received my pay yesterday, but I was still very depressed. I could practically see $200 notes with wings flying away from me when I was walking to the mrt from my workplace. Haiz. My dad called up the shop and they said my repair costs $250 !! OMG!! T___T They're going to replace the keyboard for me, but they need to import from Japan, so it gonna take 2 to 4 weeks to get my computer back! ROAR!! My sister's repair costs only $125, the fan spoiled or smth. SO CHEAP LA. UNFAIR !! I want a cute cute keyboard with pooh stickers on each notes leh. HEHE.

My dad is strangely nice to me these days. Really wondering what's wrong. Firstly, he trusted me with his Mac, now his laptop!! And he said if i get 3As for A levels, he gonna give me his new ipod nano! HAHA. I know ipod nano isnt a very new thing, but yea, at least its slimmer and smaller than ipod mini! HAHA. I dont know why i need so many mp3 players, as if i got so many ears to listen also. Better than nothing still! =P

Drama sessions started this morning! KAMBATE!! HAHAHA. Oh. I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY TEST!! YAY!! And I think I was the 5th or 6th person to leave the classroom first out of 44 people. HEHE!!

I think I'm broke for this month already.. More than half of my pay is gone. HAIZ!!

{ 7:34 PM }

It was a disastrous day for me yesterday!! After I got home from work, I switched on my comp, only to have it produce some loud alarming *doo* *doo* *doo* sounds!! I was talking to my parents at that time somemore. So you can imagine the looks on their faces!! ARGH!! And my dad rushed to my comp, but he couldn't figure out what was wrong till I told him that I spilled water on the computer that very morning!! Then he said why didn't I tell him earlier?! He wasn't at home also. And I didn't expect it to be THAT serious!

Haiz so I had been feeling horrible last night and today. Didn't want to get out of bed also, until my dad said he lend me use his computer to check my email. HEHE!! I thought he would lend me his notebook, but I'm using his Mac now HAHA. And I'm so not used to desktop, no strength to press the keyboard!

I haven't received my pay for Feb. Haiz and now I need to bear the costs of spilling 1/4 of water from my bottle onto the laptop. HAIZ. And I bet the charges are at least 1/4 to 1/2 of my monthly pay. *CRIES* I also need to buy some secret pressies though the costs would not be significant compared to the repair costs. HAIZ!!

Luckily, I have no nude photos inside my comp. HAHA. If not I might be famous soon =x HAHA.

Results release on this coming friday 2.30pm. I have to skip work, LESSER PAY!! SOBS!! Really very worried for it.. Oh man...>__<

Maybe all these incidents are bad omens for me.. I better not think too much already.

People, don't miss me as I wont be online anymore for at least 1 to 2 weeks. I CANT SURVIVE WITHOUT MY DRAMAS ARHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! T____T Come to think of it, if i use Mac to watch dramas when my dad isnt at home. Its gonna be so shiok! Coz the screen is so HUGE. Keke..*coming up with naughty ideas*

Tata! Don't miss me!! =(

{ 7:55 AM }

I must be going crazy.

I dropped my iPod at the coffeeshop today.

I spilled water on my laptop.

Now, the keyboard is cranky. OMG someone please save me. My dad just sent my sisters one for repair.

{ 11:49 AM }

Currently watching 魔女幼熙. Don't laugh at me, I know I'm super laggy as this drama was popular very long ago, i think last year. I'm just trying to make up for the lost times in JC. HAHA. I think I'll really grow fat from sitting down the whole day, and watching the chef cook delicious food. Zzz. Supposed to go ice-skating today, but it's cancelled. Should have gone out with my friend shopping instead. Sianz. Wasted my one off-day to go out play.

I can't wait to go work. I'm starting to miss the little japanese girl, Marina, whom I coached on tues and friday. Haha. On Friday, she told me not to teach this sec1 boy and teach her only. She said she's selfish. Haha. And this girl is only Primary 2. So cute. Becoming too friendly with little children isn't a good idea either. She asked if she could pull my earrings and see if it's painful or not. You can imagine my face when I felt like whacking her. ROAR!!

And there's this boy called Andrean, a very handsome lad. Haha. Even though he sat with me for just once, he somehow remembers me! So happy! And he would also come and ask me stuffs when he doesn't know. And he said "Miss, goodbye." when he left the centre! His younger brother has such big eyes and is very naughty, but he isn't friendly with me coz I dont teach him. Haha. I think Andrean and Marina is a perfect couple. Hahaha!!

I'm also very happy to see that one of the students I'm coaching is improving already. =) Won't vomit blood that much now. Haha!!

{ 10:29 AM }